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Better In Time-Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok...

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will......

Chris Daughtry - Over You

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me


I dont know why I'm writting this in my post.. Suddenly.. And just cant control myself from writing it..

Hmm.. this is my favourite songs that I would like to dedicate to someone that had hurt me so much! Someone that ^%^##^&*&^(*&)(&*^&%#@# ~ *sigh*

But that's it! I dont know what's the point of regretting all of it.. Because everything is over.. And I dont have the power to change it.. Well, I will always remember all the sweet memories.. the bad too... haha but life must goes on.. people always says that.. even me too.. And it's been over a year now.. so I guess I'm ready to move forward.. I mean really moving on.. without his shadows behind me.. It's verry hard though.. coz sometimes he will just pop out from nowhere and stuck there in my mind.. And in my heart.. heyh!! I thought that its over months ago but still sometimes I think about him.. huhu maybe that's because it had become a habit~ something that I used to do.. but when suddenly he's not there.. you know.. things suddenly change.. But lately I think I'm free from that habit.. I'm happy with my life now.. so I guess I'm really moving on.. s.l.o.w.l.y....... (and I hope this time it's for real!!)

Luckily I have lots of friend and my family around me.. You know who you are.. Really..
Hontoni.. arigato! Thanks for always being there for me.. Because of you guys I still can be me....

"Some of us thinks holding on makes us strong.. But sometimes it is letting go that makes us stronger..."