mengapa...

hmmmph... aku menulis blog ini setelah sekian lama menyepi... menulis dikala tengah makan tengahari (nasi lauk ikan n sayur...)...

hari isnin yang bosan.. terlalu banyak kerja menanti hingga aku tidak tahu yang mana satu harus kumulakan...

sebelum ini.. ya baru sebentar tadi.. aku membaca blog junior2 kesayanganku.. tetapi aku berasa sedih.. mengapa?? kenapa??

aku tahu.. aku tidak harus menjaga tepi kain sesiapa.. kerana tepi kainku sendiri hampir putus jahitan benang2nya kerana aku sendiri tidak mampu menjaganya... tetapi aku sekadar ingin meluahkan keluhan yang ada di dada.. kerana aku tidak suka dengan apa yang berlaku...

adik-adikku.. perselisihan faham dalam persahabatan memang perkara biasa yang berlaku.. sedangkan teman setia gigi sang lidah lagi sentiasa digigit.. inikan pula kita manusia biasa yang memang mudah terluka...

tetapi sedarkah kalian.. berselisih faham.. bergaduh.. bukan satu jalan yang terbaik.. kerana aku betapa penatnya menahan hati yang sakit... sakit tatkala melihat kerenahnya.. sakit tatkala mendengar suara tawanya.. sakit ketika mendengar lawaknya.. segalanya dirasakan membebankan... walaupun satu ketika dulu.. itulah yang menjadi teman setia kita untuk mewarnai kanvas kehidupan...

Tapi.. munkin kalian belum sedar yang satu ini.. satu hari nanti kalian akan berasa menyesal kerana pernah berselisih begini.. kerana daripada menanggung bebanan emosi yang terlampau.. jika kalian menyelesaikannya dengan cara yang baik.. membuang ego2 yang ada.. mencuba melupakan apa yang berlaku.. walaupun ya.. memang sakit.. aku tahu.. kerana aku juga pernah merasai apa yang kalian rasakan.. walaupun tidak seratus peratus sama.. tetapi aku begitu menyesali segalanya.. kerana waktu itu.. aku tidak menggunakan kesempatan yang ada.. untuk berbaik semula.. dan waktu itu tidak bisa aku ulang semula..

Dan kesannya.... aku telah kehilangan banyak kenangan yang sepatutnya aku cipta bersama.. di kala itu....

MAAF.. satu perkataan yang amat mudah.. satu perkataan yang mampu melunturkan segala kesakitan dan kelukaan.. jika dituturkan dengan penuh keikhlasan.. kena pada tempat dan waktunya...

Aku.. bukan ingin membebel atau meng'hentam' sesiapa.. Sekadar meluahkan apa yang aku rasa.. kerana bagi aku kita sudah d.e.w.a.s.a...... Perkara ini bisa diselesaikan jika kita mahukannya...

Jujur aku katakan aku tidak tahu langsung apa yang berlaku... tapi ketegangan itu aku bisa rasakan... dan aku tidak suka...

Kalian... percayalah.. jangan ulangi kesilapanku yang lalu... kalian masih punya waktu.. oleh itu.. berbaiklah.....

AKU DAH BERTUNANG!!!

AHAHAHAH.... JUST KIDDING!!



It's my elder sister's day.. hari pertunangan yang dinanti setelah bercinta hampir 9 tahun.. I'm glad.. coz at last they made it! coz macam2 gak halangan diorg ni time bercinta.. I'm very happy for u sis! Walaupun tak dapat bersama kalian saat itu, kerana terpaksa kembali ke UMP tercinta ekoran kerja2 yang tidak jemu2 menunggu kepulanganku.. haha but whatever it is, i"ll be back on the 13 november.. So i'll be there for the wedding! Cant wait! hee~~^-^

my sister's happy moment~

kontrol ayu eyh kakak aku tok.. =p

my mistres hermanas and friends

Hantaran pihak perempuan

Hantaran pihak lelaki

Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir Batin..

Sape nak bagi aku duit raya???=p

Sayang you all^-^

27 June 2008

This was the day when I turn into a Cinderella! haha in my dreams.. Well, it was my birthday actually, where I've turn to 22...

I know its a bit too late to post this, since its already September.. But its better late than never!

I would like to express my thanks to all that had wish me, to all that remembered that day, to those that have treat.. hehe To those that gave me beautiful, cute, yummy n etc pwesents... Thank you so much! I promise to treasure it all my life...

yummy choc from Yuyu

Surprise bday party from my gurlfriendssss... Thank you so much gurls!! (Cant upload the bday party picture since some of us is too sexy! haha)

Beauty Voir jeans shirt from Nik

cutey pillow from Sis Nyda

gorgeous hp chain from Kosh

well.. i call this hp purse.. huhu sweet pink from eza

kawaii butang@button from daoz (he gave me this when I'm in the hospital.. so sweet..=) although its a belated gift..)

This is the love note from him! saranghe to uppa.. huhu

(p/s: korang perasan tak.. dia gariskan isi2 penting.. mesti hebat wat rumusan kat skolah dulu ni.. hehe)

And to all that had treated me..
* azril and kak dalina - marvelous dinner at tanjung lumpur (my first time dining in tanjung lumpur.. huhu)
* amir - sweet yellowish cup corn..
* farhana - nice dinner at tasik ump.. hehe

And to anyone that i've not mentioned.. Thank you so much! Its not how luxurious the things you gave me, but the remembrance of my day that I value the most! Thank you so much..

Tagged by Sis Nyda

1. What is the relationship of you and her?
One of my fav sis on earth!=)

2. Your 5 impressions towards her.
kind
sweet
lovely
caring
cheerful

3. The most memorable things she had done for you.
emm.. a lot.. but being there for me is what i appreciate the most! thanks sis!~

4. The most memorable things she have said to you?
nika.. jom la kuar.. hehe

5. If she become your lover, you will...
i will be a l.e.s.b.i.a.n!!!!! haha

6. If she become your enemy, you will...
emm.. i will turn her back to be my best pal.. dont people owez say your best friend is your best enemy?? huhu

7. If she become your lover, she has to improve on...
her gender... muhehehe

8. If she become your enemy, the reason is...
the reason is.. you... i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be.. a reason to start over new, and the reason is you.. =p

9. The most desirable thing to do on her is?
to be there when she needs me!

10. The overall impression of her is...
verry kind~

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
easy going person.. but sometimes can be very moody... even if there's no =p

12. The character of you for yourself is?
gorgeous! haha

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
moody

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
... the best yunika kirana abdul khalik.. that i can be!

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them
I love you guys! All of you.. that always help me to be the best me! That's always cool with me whenever I'm cool or not cool.. That can bear with me in any situation.. Domo Arigato Gozaimasu!

p/s: to those who likes me.. i mean.. if u are a handsome and kind and sweet and caring and.. and.. and.. guy.. call me at 016 ******0... hahahahaha

Ten people to tag:

i. Sis Nyda
ii. Sis Mel
iii. Daoz
iv. Tito
v. Juma
vi. Bobby
vii. Bad
viii. Ida
ix. Bg Raja
x. Bg Wan


Can i tag more than 10?? I mean there's lots more others to tag!!! ^-^

Who is No. 2 having a relationship with?
i have no idea.. kak mel.. ngan sapa bah?

No. 3 a male or a female?
male

If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing
there you go again.. weird question.. then there will be gay!! why you have to ask this kind of question?? ask if there are guy and girl la.. haiya.. haha

How about No. 5 and No. 8?
haa.. ini baru betul.. juma and ida?? never! coz juma's mine!! huhuhu

What is No. 1 studying about?
chemical engineering. she is so in love with sabun dynamo..haha~

Is No. 4 single?
eh?? how you know??

Say something about No. 6
cumil~

Renungkanlah....

" Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu, Maka DIA Menyayangimu, Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu, Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu, Maka Dia Merancang Sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu. Oleh itu, Sentiasalah Bersangka Baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun... Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya..."


Ayat-ayat di atas pernah aku terima satu ketika dulu.. Berkali-kali juga aku pernah membacanya. Tetapi sebagai manusia biasa, aku sering lupa.. sering alpa.. Aku malu dengan diriku yang kadang2 seolah-olah menyalahkan takdir hidupku.. Sering mempersoalkan mengapa begini.. tidak begitu.. mengapa dia.. dan bukan aku.. atau sebaliknya.. Walaupun aku tidaklah menyalahkan Allah.. nauzubillah.. tetapi aku secara tidak langsung seperti tidak bersyukur dengan apa yang aku ada..

Hari ini.. sekali lagi.. aku hampir2 mengulangi kekhilafanku.. mempersoalkan mengapa aku yang harus menanggungnya.. Ya Allah, kau ampunilah dosa hambamu ini.. kerana aku hanyalah hambamu yang kerdil lagi hina.. dan aku tahu.. segala yang kau tulis untukku.. pasti adalah yang terbaik~




Surgamu- Ungu

Segala yang ada dalam hidupku
Kusadari semua milikMu
Ku hanya hambaMu yang berlumur dosa

Tunjukkan aku jalan lurusMu
Untuk menggapai SurgaMu
Terangiku dalam setiap langkah hidupku

Karena…
Kutahu…
Hanya Engkau…
Tuhanku…

Chorus:
Allahu Akbar
Allah Maha Besar
Ku memujaMu di setiap waktu

Hanyalah padaMu
Tempatku berteduh
Memohon ridho dan ampunanMu
Tunjukkan aku jalan lurusMu
Untuk menggapai SurgaMu
Terangiku dalam setiap langkah hidupku

Karena…
Kutahu…
Hanya Engkau…
Tuhanku…

Chorus

Hanyalah kepadaMu
Tempatku berteduh
Memohon ridho dan ampunanMu

teratai tasik chini....

PSM.. Projek sarjana muda.. satu nama yang cukup popular di kalangan pelajar tahun akhir... kerana satu nama inilah yang bakal membuatkan tidur malam mereka tidak lena.. Begitu juga halnya dengan diriku.. tetapi tahap aku hanyalah risau sahaja.. taklah sampai tak tidur lena. Kerana tidurku masih indah dibuai oleh mimpi2 indah.. Mimpi2 yang tidak dapat kualami di kehidupan realitiku.. kerana itulah ianya bernama m.i.m.p.i... hehe

Ok lah.. Biar aku pergi lurus tanpa perlu corner2 baring.. sebenarnya aku ingin menceritakan pengalamanku sewaktu berada di tasik chini.. Oh ya, terlupa pula.. Untuk pengetahuan kalian, PSM yang aku buat adalah berkaitan dengan air.. dan air yang berkaitan pula ialah air dari tasik chini.. pening? hehe memang sengaja aku menulis begini.. Baru ada stail kata makcik enah sebelah rumah pak kasim.. (ehehe siapa lah diorg ni.. aku pun tak tau.. hehe)

Kali terakhir aku ke tasik chini.. harap2nya begitulah kerana aku sudah bosan nak membuat eksperimen di lab. Ke tasik chini memang tak bosan.. tapi kesudahannya yang aku tidak gemar.. terpaksa menghabiskan berjam2 di lab sambil mendengar orang2 tertentu membebel di lab.. huh! tensi..

oh.. dah berlarutan lagi ceritaku.. ya.. kali terakhir aku ke tasik chini, Pakcik bot mengatakan ada teratai yg baru tumbuh. Alangkah gumbira hatiku.. kerana ini bermaksud tasik chini bakal sembuh sedikit dari keparahan.. parah terutama dari sudut kualiti airnya.. dan bila tiba di tempat teratai itu.. fuhhh... terkesima aku kerana teratai2 itu sungguh cantik...

Seperti yang kalian tahu.. pada bulan disember 07, kuantan dilanda banjir besar.. dan tasik chini turut ditimpa musibah ini.. Memang benar, banjir besar ini satu musibah. tetapi ada rahmat disebaliknya.. kerana banjir yang maha besar itu telah melimpahkan keluar sebahagian air tasik chini yang secara tidak langsung telah membersihkannya.. secara semulajadi.. jika kalian fikir.. betapa setiap perkara yang berlaku.. baik atau buruk.. pasti ada rahmat disebaliknya... cuma lambat atau cepat.. samada kita sedar atau tidak.. ia pasti ada.. begitu juga dengan kehidupan kita.. betapa DIA maha mengetahui segala-galanya... oleh itu bersyukurlah sentiasa...

Lokasi pengambaran: Teratai ni betul2 kat tepi bot.. ksian kena langgar..
nasib baik tak rosak..

lokasi pengambaran: dari atas bot.. nasib baik tak jatuh.. huhu

p/s: lambat giler nak upload.. nanti la tambah gambar lagi(kalau rajin la..)

erm.....

Better In Time-Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok...

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will......

Chris Daughtry - Over You

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me


I dont know why I'm writting this in my post.. Suddenly.. And just cant control myself from writing it..

Hmm.. this is my favourite songs that I would like to dedicate to someone that had hurt me so much! Someone that ^%^##^&*&^(*&)(&*^&%#@# ~ *sigh*

But that's it! I dont know what's the point of regretting all of it.. Because everything is over.. And I dont have the power to change it.. Well, I will always remember all the sweet memories.. the bad too... haha but life must goes on.. people always says that.. even me too.. And it's been over a year now.. so I guess I'm ready to move forward.. I mean really moving on.. without his shadows behind me.. It's verry hard though.. coz sometimes he will just pop out from nowhere and stuck there in my mind.. And in my heart.. heyh!! I thought that its over months ago but still sometimes I think about him.. huhu maybe that's because it had become a habit~ something that I used to do.. but when suddenly he's not there.. you know.. things suddenly change.. But lately I think I'm free from that habit.. I'm happy with my life now.. so I guess I'm really moving on.. s.l.o.w.l.y....... (and I hope this time it's for real!!)

Luckily I have lots of friend and my family around me.. You know who you are.. Really..
Hontoni.. arigato! Thanks for always being there for me.. Because of you guys I still can be me....

"Some of us thinks holding on makes us strong.. But sometimes it is letting go that makes us stronger..."

our bracelet..

Look at our hands~!!!=p omg.. isnt is gorgeous?? hehe

nika, ila, daoz, tito and nizam

ila's and mine

Do we look like the next top model??lol


This bracelet was bought buy Tito Lamat when we were at TC! Tito was the first one buying it.. Then me (dgn tak malunya) asked tito to buy it for me.. hehe and because at that time tito was a bit 'kaya' and well.. ya.. i have to admit that he is generous.. huhu so he bought it for me, ila, daoz and nizam.. Guess what.. we 'tipu' that abg yg jual this bracelet, saying that we are from Sarawak, having our holiday here, in Kuantan. haha but as the result.. we got great cheap yay price for it! huhuhu

The bracelet does not symbolize frenship or anything alike.. But it symbolizes our very own memories.. for that moment, for that gila2 week... Thanks Tito!

Serupa tapi tak sama....

See No Evil.

Hear No Evil.
Speak No Evil.

uhuhu.. jgn marah aaaa.. bulan baik ni.. (^-^)Y

Salam Ramadhan

SELAMAT BERPUASA KEPADA SELURUH UMAT ISLAM DI SELURUH DUNIA.....

its their graduation day...

22 August 2008-

*******************************

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
**************************

-bg wan, me n bg raja-

-kak atie, me n kak nana-

-teoh(first class honour ni..) n me-

-me , ila, din, ikhwan n izni-

-zudin n me-




well.. well.. its their graduation day. But who says i cant wear the 'green'.. oopsie.. turquoise jubah. huhu see! even its bg wan's jubah, i look good in them right~ haha and propa tak gambar ni =p but i like this pose.. thanks kak nyda! bg wan.. dont u think we look sweet n natural. hehe i guess its us.. ya u know.. best actor n actress~ owez! =p


TAHNIAH kepada yang berjaya bergelar seorang graduan.. Dan semoga sukses selalu!

amoi ka ini??

Nope.. this is not amoi.. this is minah.. coz she's a malay girl.

~my lovely roommate~

This is Khoshikin Adenan, my lovely roommate. Ans she's lovable too... (bcoz she's promoting me in her blog and without my permission!hehe)

So as a good roommate, i'm doing the very same thing here.. promoting her in my blog.. huhu relax aaa.. ini bukan membalas dendam dan tiada makna tersirat mahupun tersurat. I just feel that its kinda cute.. you know-promoting your friend in your blog~ new style! hehe

Now she's in her way to kl. N maybe she'll be here tomorrow or on sunday. Well, kl is just like kuantan to her. huhu Khoshikin is a very good friend and very funny too..

Kosh.. ok sik? hehe tok kali kedua mek tulis.. first tek best gik.. tp sik tauk pahal x terpublished post ya~ jadi dgn smangatnya polah gik tok.. hehe

the meaning of y.u.n.i.k.a.k.i.r.a.n.a

What Yunika Kirana Means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

i'm in love with big apple ^-^

Omg!~~ i am so in l.o.v.e with this yummy big apple donuts.. Especially the one that has almond on it.. i dont remeber the name.. huhu.. ya.. n the one with the choc toping.. Ooooo~ so delicious! What's the name again daoz? Well, me n my room mate kosh just simply give its name "Donut choc yg daoz suka". (Thanks tito coz belikan pesanan mek orang riya, and you understand what we mean by donut choc yg daoz suka.. hehe) Actually i dont like verrry sweet cookies, cakes, donuts or whatever it is that belongs to this category.. But for this big apple-it's different!! When eating it you'll feel that you are in love, you are in another world.. you are.. arrggh! i just cant find the right words.. So for those who have not trying it, go on! I'm sure you dont wanna miss the great feeling! huhu

p/s: Thanks daoz for being verry generous on that day.. u know what i mean~ ^-^

I cant imagine if I'm eating all this alone.. H.E.A.V.E.N.!

Dah tak sabar diorg ni nak makan... hehe


In a nutshell(mcm buat conclusion karangan.. haha), eating big apple donuts at Teluk Cempedak is.. is.. oiishii desu!

Manusia Bodoh

Artist: ADA Band

Dahulu terasa indah
Tak ingin lupakan
Bermesraan selalu jadi Satu kenangan manis

Tiada yang salah
Hanya aku manusia bodoh
Yang biarkan semua ini permainkanku
Berulang ulang kali

Mencoba bertahan sekuat hati
Layaknya karang yang dihempas sang ombak
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka
Serahkan cinta tulus di dalam takdir

Tapi sampai kapankah kuharus
Menanggungnya kutukan cinta ini
Bersemayam dalam kalbu

Tak ayal tingkah lakumu
Buatku putus asa
Kadang akal sehat ini
Belum cukup membendungnya

Hanya kepedihan
Yang selalu datang menertawakanku
Engkau belahan jiwa
Tega menari indah di atas tangisanku

Semua kisah pasti ada akhir
Yang harus dilalui
Begitu juga akhir kisah ini
Yakinku indah

dance, love, sing, live....

persatuan blogger low profile... =p

BLOGGER yg LOW PROFILE???

Persatuan ni dah agak lama difikirkan tapi baru malam ni dgn rasminya perjanjian antara kami bertiga ditandatangani... Saksi utama penubuhan persatuan ini ialah blogger2 aktif iaitu saudara daoz dan rani.. tidak lupa juga kepada non-blogger.. saudara adam... thanks guys~~ =p

Nak tau siapa kami.. ehehe

me n yuyun...

cuba teka sape ni?? hehehe